I had a dream of you last night and it makes me cry.

Another day. Another pain.

Seems like something bad happen to the sky today. It looks like it's gonna rain. Is it crying for another lost soul today?

Home - Tablo playing in the background from my phone. I didn’t know I could be this broken.

“Now I cry without tears

Just like breathing, I cry again

The sadness that became a home

Though I try to take a step out, I cry at the doorstep

I cry, without me knowing”

Today too, the weight of the world pinned you to the ground. It makes you breathless. Crawling. You try to stand but only ended up on your knees.

“Crying is easy just like breathing

The more you hold it in, the more you let out”

You want a break from the world but the world wanna breaks you.

There's something calming about the rain. It feels like the world is crying with you. Telling you that you're not alone. That everything's gonna be okay. If it's not okay, it's not the end, they say.

“Inside my sadness that became my home,

Can I invite you in?”

when it rain
it feels as though
the sky is crying
with you
trying to console you
in it’s own way
and perhaps that’s why
I hope for this rain  
to never stop.

One message received.

"Akhi. There's ikhwah that would like to give you some help. Can you just contact him? He hope that you can keep your focus on study and to keep going in this DnT."

Sometimes, the kindness of a stranger is much more powerful than the hatred residing inside your heart.

Stab my chest.
Pull apart my heart.
Cleanse me with your soul.

"O you who have believed, repent to Allah with sincere repentance. Perhaps your Lord will remove from you your misdeeds and admit you into gardens beneath which rivers flow [on] the Day when Allah will not disgrace the Prophet and those who believed with him." (At Tahrim, 66: 8)

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